My Creations Cont..

Deep Dark Gothic Poetry

My Creations Cont..

Deadmen marching

Skeleton drummer

A war being fought

Minds filled with thought

Knowing from the start

Dead soldiers have no heart

The end is clear

Death is near

Look in the night

There is no light

For now you will die

No chance to cry

Just say goodbye.

Nightmares of Death Dreams of Life

I lay down to sleep every night with a cold and battered body. The abuse I feel is real. I slowly close my swollen eyes and a dream soon appears. I am walking happily down the street clean clothes no bruises. Singing I walk into my home my father mother brother sister all welcome me. Love is found in our family. I awaken to see my body still broken and left without a token of the dream I have spoken. I live another day. I lay the next night carefully with a broken arm and bruised ribs. Eyes already closed for swollen are they. A nightmare appears to me. I see myself the way I am walking down the street, this time there isnt a beat, I sing no song. I walk into my home imediately grabbed by my father and thrown to the floor, little blood spills than a little more. I cry for help, unheard like a puppy yelp. I lay still taking his kicks to my stomach, taking his love the way he gives it to me. I awaken crying and in pain. I go to get up but already I am at the hands of my father. He begins his assaults on me. My body broken even more now. Screaming crying slowly dieing. In my life I was always trying, to make things good for all but me. And now I am laying here my heart is slowing, my blood beginning to cease flowing. And all my life Ive been knowing, the kicks of my father my wounds now are showing and his harsh words, now is my time of death I must be going. The light that was once lit is now out, I cry than die with one last shout."All hear these words and help the abused"

Hey Dad,
Did you think of me today?
Is that a yes you say?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Can I go fishing with you today?
Is that a you wanna go by yourself you say?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Did you really go fishing today?
Is that a yeah but I didnt catch anything today?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Did you say to moms best friend you loved her today?
You didnt mean it like that you say?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Did you cheat on mom today?
Is that a know that you say?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Did I lie to mom when I told her you were cheating today?
Is that a yes you say?
Your a fucking liar.

Hey Dad,
Is everything I have said true today?
Is that a hell no you say?
Your a fucking liar.

~This is all true every bit of it is true. My father cheated on my mom, he said he went fishing but he really met up with my moms only/best friend. He said he never told her he loved her and threatened to beat me for breaking up the family. I dont really like to curse in my poems but it was the easiest and clearest way for me to express the raw emotion I have for my father which is that of a pure and true hate.~

"Random Poem"

Baby Powder
Makes things so nice
Trash cans
Carry away the wastes of life
Cups
Containers to satisfy our thirsts
Implants
Things that put something where it wasnt before
Sugar
Sweetens the most bitter things
Chickens
Some are just sooo cute and they taste so good
Parents
Here to make sure you do what they want
Televisions
Boxes of pictures some people love to stare at
Music
Sometimes puts feelings to words for us that we cannot
Friends
There to pick us up when we fall
My Poems
Words I throw out to those willing to read them
Life
The moment between being conceived and dieing.

Soon to be suicide

I wish to no longer live
I cant take this pain anymore
There isnt a reason for me to stay here
No one loves me no one really cares
My family wants me dead
My friends dont care about me
I cant stand it
I loved a friend and now we dont even talk
I loved her and now she wont even say hello
I loved so many in this life and never ever did anyone care
I want this over to end this now
For the few people that did love me
I screwed things all up
So now I am going to take myself from this place
Next week dont think I will be around
For my body will be found
Alone in death as I was in life
Slits on my wrists and a bloody knife

Friends forever

As you lay to sleep you count your sheep
Your eyes despise all past lies
You picture me inside your head
Wishing I was alive and not dead
Here one day than taken away
A car moved into my lane
I soon felt a gravely pain
My last thought I spent on you
Looking back on times we were two
A smile came to my face
Suddenly taken from this place
Our friendship lasted even with my last breath
Loving you even after my sudden death
For friends we always were with each other
Friendship stronger than a sister and brother
When death draws near I will whisper into your ear
Now our friendship will always last
Fun after death such a blast.

Dream turned reality

Silent roads lit by flames of evil laughter
Endless nights of chaos, soon after
Angels killed by demons of their own
God defeated, cast out from his thrown
An innocent child sacrificed soon dies
Wipe those damned tears from your eyes
This is what you dreamed for isnt it what you desire
For everything around you to suddenly expire
The world in a blaze of an eternal fire
You awaken and think that all is well
But soon realize your in hell
Your flesh melts from your bone
How could you have met this fate alone
You see no one and cry out
In a most ungodly shout
Why? Damnit. Why?
Did I wish to die
So now comes the end of my rhyme
Enjoy life always for soon is your time

Return of a former friend

I am with you at night
Standing above your bed as you rest
I stare and think of what it is I desire
To taste your wine warm in your vessels
To feast on your flesh
You knew me when I once lived
You were my very best friend
I stepped on you one day
You turned me away
Never to know my face again
Death found me soon after
I was soon buried, at my funeral you were there
The nerve of you to show your face at my grave
As if you desired to be sure I was no longer around
In death I didnt find rest for soon I was awaken
I came to you at night in a dream
You shed tears and let out a terrible scream
So now every night I am near
The very thought of it you fear

Family caused suicide

No more life do I have to live
Words should be spoken
I have these to give
My life has come to its ungodly end
Even in my death not even one friend
All my life and Ive known no love
Not even from God which be above
Parents beat me so far far down
In all my life I wore a frown
Siblings hated me wished I was dead
Took a gun two shots to my head
At my funeral they all stood in tears
I looked from the darkness whispered in their ears
In life you hated me cursed my name
Now you know emotions arnt a game
Im gone forever..... dont cry for me

To Live Again

When I was alive you hated me.

You cursed me for being around.

I used to humble myself before you

Do everything you asked me to do.

I bled upon your request.

I killed for your entertainment

Never once did I hear thanks

Not once did I hear Im proud of you

All I ever got was you stupid creature

I was your child turned animal

You raised me like a dog

If I could I would live again

Show you what pain is

You made me kill innocent people

Just so you could laugh

I would show you what pain is

I would kill my mother

Yes you would be dead

Laying in your own blood

Upon your bed

After all mom

Thats what you did to me

If only.....To Live Again

Eternally Damned

I used to pray, but dont know why.

All I ever ended up doing was cry

Life became painful, to hard to live

I had given to God all I could give

Things only got worse never ever good

How God failed me I didnt think he could

I turned from him went the other way

Life got better each and every day

Dont know why, had faith in nothin

But it was short didnt last very long

With tears in my eyes and a broken heart

I knew I was going to end my life from the start

Nothing in life will ever last

Pulled the trigger, just one blast

Cursing the name of God above

I now walk forever in eternal damnation

Here in earth he says I am to find salvation

Well I havent yet, so here I am still

Damn never choose the way out I did

That is to say Self-Kill

For You Daddy

They say you cant live without love

What they say is a lie

I say you cant live with love

I was young had a loving family

Fucked up distorted turned upside down

My family worthy of a frown

Heard daddy talking on the phone

Leave me son so I can be alone

Ok daddy was my reply

He fuckin cheated on mom so I wished he would die

I hated him, he fucked the woman when I was asleep

Only three people him her and I

Fuck I didnt even get the chance to cry

Had to talk for three other people

Mom, sis and bro

Why the hell did you fuck that ho?

Things all cooled down

Mom stayed with that clown

I became depressed even suicidal

One day an argument got started

These words my father spoke to me

Kill yourself it doesnt matter to me.

I shoulda took your advice

I woulda took your advice

But I had three other people to live for

Mom, sis and bro

Time went by they all turned against me

I heard take your life again it doesnt matter to me

Just wait daddy give me time and we will see...

Soon Life to be Over... Maybe Not

Suicidal thoughts demand for me to give in

The room darkens death slowly closing in

You have no life end it now, but how?

Knife.....to much blood

Gun.......to quick

Rope......takes too long

Does it really matter how I go?

As Long I as do it and its over

But I want a way of my own, something comfortable

Guess until I find a way, Ill walk on in life

Living on yet another miserable day.

Wishing For A Chance

When I first met you I wanted your love

Writing back and fourth I thought I had a slight chance

Time passed and another person entered your life

Having been turned down, I simply walked out

Time passed again and we lost touch

You called when things started getting bad

I tried to help with all I had

How could someone treat you that bad?

After talking for a while

You ended it with him I knew you could

Finally you without him

One more chance I thought I might have had

Again shot down was I, a bird not meant to fly

Finally abandoning my attempts

You find a new person, someone good

Someone to give you everything I never could

Wishing for a chance

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