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1/14/12
Its never easy knowing you've hurt someone, it's never easy being the one
thats been hurt. Taking a step to move on with your life sometimes feels like a leap of faith. I wish I could not care, I
wish I could say I dont love. When the world is filled with so much suffering. Things can always be worse. But what happens
when one loses all desire all meaning all value. When a persons only hope is to return to that which they came....darkness.
So this is the outlook I have...
For a quarter of a century I have lived what feels like an eternity, experienced a life of love betrayel
happiness and sorrow. The happiness has been short the sorrow heavy. I have searched for meaning where there has been
none, for truths were it could not be found. Knowing that the river still flows and I never know what might be around the
next corner keeps my head above the water. Anticipating what could be next makes me sometimes want to sink down to the bottom.
Choice is the most powerful word I have come to know in this life. I have a choice to breath a choice to wake, a choice to
see whats next. Do I feel at times I dont want that choice, often, however Im reminded of the fact that life happens with
or without. I question my faith my honor my self worth daily. Minute by minute my mind works, attempting to resolve issues
that are simply outside of my control. I have no power and yet I sit upon the throne that is my life. I float down
the river to an unknown destination for what cause or purpose I do not know.
I might also include some information about my personal history: where I grew up, where I went to school, various places I've
lived. If I have one, I'll include a picture of myself engaging in an activity I enjoy, such as a sport or hobby.
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Favorites
Here's a list of some of my favorite movies:
Here's a list of some of my favorite music:
Nirvana, Frank Sinatra, Ibrahim Ferrer
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