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These writings came from my desire to wish to be with the one I truley loved and still honestly do love.   Many of us love one person with everything we have and often times that feeling the other person has isnt as strong or simply doesnt exsist at all or any longer.  Enjoy my feelings of lost love.

For Renee: Things have been rough lately between us... I knowI I care for you I love You Renee and I want everyone to know that I want to be with Renee. Renee is perfect aside from a few times we have had rough arguments or what not. Alas may she be happy with me and we walk hand in hand in life together. I love you Renee...... love Love you!

5/5/06
 
I added a journal entry about me and my fiance and my current job.

"Untitled" Written after my just recent break up with Sara Fisher, personally i feel looking back at this as if it was just a pathetic attempt to try to get Sara to stay with me or perhaps hang on to what little love she did have for me. This poem almost literally makes me sick anytime I read it but u be the judge for yourself.
 
Though we do not know why our paths
in life have intertwind
We both have some sort of love in mind
Different, but in the future we'll find
If its been worth it,
or if it should have been left behind.
For myself  I can confess only real love for you
But should we try and if you know and feel
Your love will never change or ever be real
It would all come to the end
And we both would have lose a cherished friend.
 
Again my apologys as this poem really was just a hopeless hope for her to love me after all the wrong she had done to me. Now though I no longer lover her which i think is why this in another way makes me sick to read it.

"My Love For You"

I know I will always love you

These feelings forever will stay true

My heart you have touched like no other

My body you have touched like my lover

Count on me you always can

I will show you care like no other man

If you are sad to me thats bad

If you are glad to me thats rad

Your feelings I never meant to hurt

I dug up our letters from the dirt

To show you just how much I care

When you are down I will be there

We can grow together as close as friends can be

You can and will one day see

Friends forever are you and me.

"The Love We Once Shared"

There was a day once long ago

where we were friends in all we'd go

Time passed our friendship grew strong

I never meant to hurt you or do any wrong

I love you with all my heart

more as a friend at the start

We grew to be more than just friends

we became inseparable until the end

We had times both bad and good

One more chance I wish we could

I was depressed and down

Until my angel, my prayer, you came round

My heart I thought I never had

My God how could I have treated you so bad

You showed me so much care

Into your eyes I would stare

All I could see was my prayer, your love

I prayed to God in heaven above

Allow me to keep this angel of yours

Let her and I one day go on those bus tours

Well now things started to turn against me

I was a jerk, and now you see

Never a chance will I get

Not even a smile or a playful love hit

But my oh my what we had

Sure did, God it made me Glad.

 

"If I Could"

If I could I would go back in time

Undo all the pain and let you see no crime

I would say Sorry when I was wrong

Give you a sweet kiss when we heard our song

Be more nice to you in front of others

Be less sexual and better lovers

I would gently kiss your face

Take you far from this place

Not in body but in thought

I would say sorry every time we fought

I would show you and give you more

I would always open any door

To let you see the real me

and how beautiful our love could grow to be

But now its all over and I am alone again

Depression is me without you as more than friend

Love you dont realize until the end

Now your gone

Your starting to move on

To things much better that you deserve

Forever it is you I will only serve

Everything you want I will try to give you

Failing something I wont do

Because again I say I Love You

 

"Sorry"

One word I never got to say

One word could have changed things

One word I was to proud to let out

One word I never ever did shout

I full of sin never just a word

I gave into Satan in not using one word

I turned my back on the Lord over just a word

Time please turn back for me this word I know now

Saying it at that time I didnt know how

Sorry, Sorry, Sorry Sorry Babygirl

Your my life, my soul, my heart, my world

 

"You"

Someone your finding now

I didnt let you be now I see how

I pulled you from things you love

I showed you i have no faith in God above

I rejected your feelings and turned cold

I felt your feelings for me getting old

Even then I never let you be you

I took all you loved from you

I invested everything in us two

But never ever did I let you be you

Now your finding other people and have said goodbye you

Now I am gonna be more than just two

Now I am gonna show you these things I will have

Friends and many more than you have

Turn yourself into the night

Now I glow again this time more bright

Even now you hate the light

Your a monster I could never say

But now I see it more everyday

I will never be with you again

You took away all I was

Like a parasite in the night

You drained me of my life

You a monster wanted me as wife

Well you beast just these words I have to say

Die Die Die and get the hell away

From me my new friends and all I am

I will never again let you close or see me

Because a monster is what you started to get me to be

I will never be like you and I desire nothing more

Than to see your blood, monster, on the floor